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Good luck with that.

Jeff A — Wed, 10 Mar 2010 04:13:07 +0000

Hello little blog, I’ve been missing you. I know I have been neglecting you but life has been so crazy lately. Honestly it feels like I haven’t had two minutes of free time. I know that’s not really true, the problem is the depression. It makes me tired and makes me lose interest in things I normally love.

I sleep excessively and when I’m not sleeping, I am staring blankly at the tv or a book and learning nothing. People have been trying to help, they have done things such as schedule events for me and even tried new medications. So far, they have failed.

I just wanted to let you know that I miss you and someday soon I will be back to my regular chatty self, I hope. At any rate maybe I will post more regularly.

see you later,
Jeff A

cordundery

It must be an epidemic!

Jeff A — Fri, 26 Feb 2010 04:11:06 +0000

There have been quite a few searches for ileocolic resection landing here lately. I assume you are coming here hoping for information on the procedure. Rest assured I have no idea what they did. All I know is I fell asleep on that gurney and woke up with a bunch of stitches in my belly. Oh and a really cool tube going down my throat.

If your doctor is recommending this procedure, you are right to research it. A little knowledge goes a long way towards easing your mind. I highly recommend the surgery as it does help. I unfortunately have already begun to show signs of my immune system attacking my colon. So yes I will have to get it done again in the future. Good luck.

cordundery

The world I know.

Jeff A — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 05:21:30 +0000

Christmas is over and it’s just about time to ring in the new year. A new year and a new start. Hopefully a more prosperous year for all. As I read through my posts for the past year it occurred to me that I have become quite boring. Not really much I can do about that but try harder in the new year.

I have been on new medication for my depression for over a month now and as always I still see no improvement. The waiting is what always gets me in the end.

I received money for Christmas which was a welcome thing. I used it to buy a smaller camera to carry with me. My other point and shoot was too big to fit in a pocket so I had to carry it around in a small bag so it didn’t get used as much as it should have. This new one is slim enough to fit in a pocket and fires up pretty quick. Whether it will spur me to take more shots outside of my regular photo work remains to be seen. Time will tell.

It is not one of my regular brands of camera but it has so far really surprised me with it’s build and picture quality. It takes gigantic photos so they have to be sized down and compressed quite a bit or they would take forever to load on the site.

Here is one of the first I took of some heart shaped balloons(you’ll have to trust me on that since you can’t tell in the photo) trapped in a tree, I call it Love Lost:

Click to enlarge

cordundery

This may be a new record!

Jeff A — Fri, 18 Dec 2009 16:43:25 +0000

I think I have all my Christmas shopping done now. I never finish this early, ever.

The judge sided with me in my attempt to receive medicaid due to my disability. Now on to more pressing matters like finding someone who can actually help me feel better.

The girls are out for Christmas break until the 5th of January. Please please pray for me, I think I’m going to need it.

I apologize to all my blog friends, I have been neglecting you all for too long. I have a lot of catching up to do, hold on tight while I try to read everything that I have missed over the last few weeks.

Dismissed!

cordundery

Hello again hello.

Jeff A — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 17:29:22 +0000

Hey my friends, it has been a rough week. Finished the post on my last photo shoot all while tending to a couple sick children. Having them here made an otherwise 4 hour job take 2 days. It was nice to have some company though.

I have been slacking a bit on blogging due to those two reasons as well as a few others. I have also started on a new treatment path for my depression. I never enjoy this as it always ends up with me getting frustrated but never any better.

Alright, done for now since typing on this tiny keyboard is giving me a headache.

cordundery

T-Minus 2 hours and counting.

Jeff A — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 17:14:43 +0000

Today in just a few hours I will finally be getting my dental work done. I would love to say I am looking forward to it, but that would be a lie. I am hoping it will give some relief to me.

While I would prefer to sleep through this, my dentist has decided to go the sedation route which will leave me conscious but out of it. I have had the sedation method before but this work is much larger scale than it was then.

Oh well, see you later alligator.

cordundery

Of gerbils and humanoids

Jeff A — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 04:22:41 +0000

Nary a thing worth mentioning!

My disability hearing was continued. My doctors appointment turned out to be not a doctor but a social worker. I am now taking issue with them for having a sign that said accepting new patients. I informed them that it should read accepting new clients since they are sticking the new ones with social workers. Needless to say, I was a bit po’ed.

The new date to get my dental work done is the 16th. Baring flood or famine this one should happen. It may leave me without teeth for a bit, but in the long run I am sure it will be worth it.

Stupidity gone wild? My neighbor took down their Halloween decorations and put up their Christmas ones on the same day. I just think it’s a little premature. I love Christmas as much as the next guy, but it’s not even close yet. Sheesh

Anything else, nope, my noggin is now empty and devoid of thought. Now I can get some sleep.

cordundery

Health care thoughts from someone stuck in the system!

Jeff A — Fri, 23 Oct 2009 03:01:59 +0000

The title actually fits the post this time!

I have been trying to prepare for my appeal, unfortunately, they don’t really give you any help on this. I still have not received their “evidence”, they supposedly were going to send me. I am beginning to think that was just something to distract me.

There is so much wrong with this system it is unbelievable, and the government wants me to trust them with my health care as well? My caseworker refuses to return my calls or even answer her phone. Whenever you talk to someone there they talk down to you like you are a piece of something they found on their shoe. I understand that their job is stressful and they are constantly having to deal with people trying to game the system. I am not one of those and do not expect to be treated this way.

You can complain to public officials till you are blue in the face, but since I am only one voter they could care less either. I will be glad to see many of my current elected officials go. If the government can’t even handle the Medicaid or social security system they have now, I shudder to think what they will do to my health care once they have it in their grubby little paws.

Does our current health care system need fixed, yes. Is the government the ones who should do it, heck no. I’ll tell you what, as soon as you can make the postal system turn a profit I will let you handle my health care.

cordundery

Hey yo

Jeff A — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 22:48:19 +0000

Hi all. Real busy right now working on photos and my disability appeal. I had no idea what a long drawn out process it would be. I should be back on a normal schedule late next week.

cordundery

Calling Orin Scrivello

Jeff A — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 03:55:22 +0000

See if you can figure that one out without using google!

Wednesday I am going to be getting some significant dental work done. I have put it off for too long. When it is all done, I will be toothless for awhile. I am sorry but I just can’t justify paying for temporary dentures, insanity! It’s alright though, the teeth I have now are not serving me very well.

Once I get this done, my gastro wants to start a new treatment plan. She was afraid to start it with so much wrong with my mouth. She claims it can cause complications, whatever. Alright, I will grant that it is an immunosuppressant, but what are the chances really?

This will be affecting my diet, not in a way I appreciate. Soft foods for awhile, at least until my benefit year is up and can use the insurance again. If someone had told me how expensive all this stuff is, I might have been a little more careful. No, probably not, but I would like to think so.

At any rate, if I post anything on Wednesday, take it with a grain of salt as I will be under the influence!

UPDATE: Appointment had to be canceled, dentist didn’t bother to pre authorize the visit so now I am in wait mode again, this is so frustrating!

cordundery