I’ve been thinking a lot lately, mostly about life the universe and everything. Not in a Douglas Adams way but a real and life shaping way.

I have tried to live my life with the attitude that Gods got this. Do what I’m supposed to do and trust God for the rest. This fly’s in the face of what the world wants you to think. The majority of people will tell you that is an outdated and naive way of thinking. For awhile I was able to just let the worlds opinion slide off my back. Somewhere along the line I forgot to ignore and instead fell in line with the rest of the world. Once you let that happen, then all hell breaks loose, literally!

Now here I am, at an odd cross road in my walk. I know which way I need to go, but need to find the strength to make that trek. Now that’s the hard part, finding the strength.

Just a quick post. I am editing photos now and hope to put up some sort of photo essay within the next few days. Just a stroll down memory lane for me.

I must say that Anna wasn’t too impressed. It’s hard to explain to her the memories associated with things that are no longer there. Most of the buildings are still there, but most of the businesses are long gone. The park isn’t as cool as I remember it. They have put in too many child safe (read: crappy) things.

Oh well, all things change except God who is always good. The one constant in our lives that we can count on.

Yeah, title is from a Motley Crue song. Has nothing to do with anything.

The last few weeks have been strange if anything. Normally this is where I would tell you how horrible it all was and other woe is me crap. I’m going to skip that this time and just say God is good.

I am currently fighting Indiana weather for a chance to get out and do some photography. It’s in the 70′s right now, by Saturday there’s a chance of snow! I’m ready to move now.

That may not be entirely true but lets just go with it shall we?

There has been a lot of craziness going on over the last week. While I am not a liberty to divulge details; lets just say it has altered my world view. It has brought up emotions that I would just rather not deal with. Thank God for my bible, my meds and my iPod or I would probably have went off the deep end.

Enough about that though. As my Facebook followers know it has been raining a lot here, unfortunately there is nowhere left for the rain water to go so it has been flooding. Fortunately the water hasn’t gotten high enough to damage any homes that I’ve heard of. My favorite park though is under water, lots and lots of water.

The upside of this is it has given me the opportunity to shoot some video footage and learn some of the basics of video editing. While it will never replace my love of photography it is a fun diversion.

This weekend has been really rough on all of us and with that thought I am going to go to bed and toss and turn for a few hours!

Almost

Again I pray that God will bless the coming year. That we may feel Him move in all our lives. That this country might experience a revival. I ask that He will guide our government to do what is right and just. I also pray that if you have a God shaped hole in your heart, you may come to know my savior, Jesus Christ.
Amen

I love Halloween, I like getting the bejeebers scared out of me. Although that gets harder and harder each year. I have been told that because I am a Christian, I should not be celebrating Halloween. That it is a ceremony for evil. I say pish posh, there are lots of holidays with questionable backgrounds. I’m not going out and worshipping satan, nor am I planning on offering up a sacrifice anytime soon. God knows my heart, He knows that I love Him, He also knows that I have a penchant for scary things, He should know, He made me this way!

Anyway, I said all that to say this. I like this zombie theme so I will leave it up till after Halloween. Enjoy!

I’m about halfway through Becky’s trip to Cali. The girls are still alive, actually they are doing well all things considered. Since my illness makes me lethargic and my medications make me downright sleepy, I’m not much fun. We have been trying to make it fun for all of us, sometimes it works, sometimes not so much.

Anna loves to ride bikes, I used to love to ride bikes. Anna wants me to ride with her, I want to cry after going two blocks. I have to plan our rides so that I have opportunities to rest and it has to keep her entertained while I recuperate. Thank God for the retention pond full of fish and geese.

Desiree is happy to just sit around and read all day, as long as the book has something to do with vampires. Twilight has really ruined vampires for me. I used to think they were cool when they started to smoke and then explode in sunlight, now they just sparkle, STUPID!

We have all had input on meals. Yes our meals have not been the healthiest fare at times, but we are trying and hey, it’s only for a week. Desi picked and cooked the meal Wednesday night, her choice was chicken sausage and fried cucumbers. Quite a surprise for me. I had tried fried pickles before and loved them, fried cukes was a first. Surprisingly we all liked them, even Anna, once she doctored them with ketchup.

Anna wants stir fry Thursday night. She wants to help cook it too. I have a feeling this is going to be a learning experience for both of us. Stay tuned to find out!

As I write this I am wondering if I am going to fall asleep before it is time to get up, I’m not feeling very confident about that. Last week was rough, emotionally draining. This week is shaping up to be more of the same, just of a different variety.

My health insurance expired at the beginning of this month, now all I have is the Medicaid with a huge spend down that makes it practically useless. I have tried to get other health insurance but that isn’t working out. No one wants to cover me. No real surprise there. I wonder if this means I will be fined under Obamacare?

Anyway, without the insurance I can’t afford my medications, even with the disability payments. Between meds and constant doctor visits I go through a lot of money each month, money that I can not afford. I am still unsure of what to do about this, it has been weighing on my mind since Saturday. I imagine something will come up, God seems to provide just in time, usually when I realize I need to stop worrying about it.

Also, it bares repeating, Pop Tarts are highly flammable. Don’t ask how I know, I just do and we will leave it at that.

I meant to put this up yesterday but I was a bit stressed out. Anyway, I would appreciate it if you would keep my dad in your prayers. He is in the hospital with pneumonia. He said he was feeling a little better yesterday but still quite weak. Thank you all and God bless.

So I said I planned on getting out and doing some photography, didn’t happen. Not really a big surprise there! Of course there was a reason behind this. Aside from the fact that I have been slightly ill. I have been dealing with the social security stuff.

Did I mention that I am getting my disability? Did I mention that God really does answer prayer. Too many really awesome and slightly out of left field things have happened over the last three days. I found out Monday that my disability had been approved, Tuesday I found out there was more to that than expected, Wednesday I got a check in the mail that I never expected to come.

Like I said, the last three days have been amazing and slightly overwhelming. I was glad to go to my prayer meeting Wednesday night, it is always enjoyable to share with my church the prayers that do get answered.

So while I am sure there were multiple people involved with getting me my disability, I am giving all the credit and praise to God, He is truly amazing. Alright, that’s all for the moment. I really need to get some rest.