I am getting used to the new stuff, it just makes me really tired right now. Yeah I know, like I needed anything else making me tired. I think these doctors know what they are doing to me and are laughing about it behind my back.

Becky got a car to replace her little yellow focus. We got it home and she started having buyers remorse. I tried to reassure her that not only is that normal, but if you didn’t have remorse it probably is a good sign that you should have. It’s a good car, and it was in our price range, meaning that the insurance money covered most of it and all we had to pay was the taxes.

I’m going to bed now, see ya!

My health insurance expired at the beginning of this month, now all I have is the Medicaid with a huge spend down that makes it practically useless. I have tried to get other health insurance but that isn’t working out. No one wants to cover me. No real surprise there. I wonder if this means I will be fined under Obamacare?

Anyway, without the insurance I can’t afford my medications, even with the disability payments. Between meds and constant doctor visits I go through a lot of money each month, money that I can not afford. I am still unsure of what to do about this, it has been weighing on my mind since Saturday. I imagine something will come up, God seems to provide just in time, usually when I realize I need to stop worrying about it.

Also, it bares repeating, Pop Tarts are highly flammable. Don’t ask how I know, I just do and we will leave it at that.

So I am stuck now waiting on the insurance company to give my dentist the OK to go ahead with the procedure. I am trying to reason it all out in my mind and not getting very far.

Essentially I am waiting for someone who takes my money and then makes me beg to get it back. Hopefully they are going to give it to someone who doesn’t even realize they are supposed to preauthorize expensive stuff(they say they use this insurance company all the time). This person, who doesn’t even know how to do the easy stuff right, is then going to be digging around in my mouth with sharp instruments and removing teeth while I am semi-conscious. Oh yeah, this sounds like a great idea!

Oh well, gives me a chance to use this T.G.I. Fridays coupon, see ya later.

Wednesday I am going to be getting some significant dental work done. I have put it off for too long. When it is all done, I will be toothless for awhile. I am sorry but I just can’t justify paying for temporary dentures, insanity! It’s alright though, the teeth I have now are not serving me very well.

Once I get this done, my gastro wants to start a new treatment plan. She was afraid to start it with so much wrong with my mouth. She claims it can cause complications, whatever. Alright, I will grant that it is an immunosuppressant, but what are the chances really?

This will be affecting my diet, not in a way I appreciate. Soft foods for awhile, at least until my benefit year is up and can use the insurance again. If someone had told me how expensive all this stuff is, I might have been a little more careful. No, probably not, but I would like to think so.

At any rate, if I post anything on Wednesday, take it with a grain of salt as I will be under the influence!

UPDATE: Appointment had to be canceled, dentist didn’t bother to pre authorize the visit so now I am in wait mode again, this is so frustrating!

I have been spending time getting everything ready for my big adventure on Friday. I am trying to keep myself occupied so I don’t psych myself out anymore than I already am.

Had to go to the doctor today because my bronchitis is not totally gone yet, this is not a good thing since I cannot have it when I go to surgery. The doc gave me the antibiotic that they usually perscribe for pneumonia. She said this should work and have me where I need to be by Friday. When I went to get the perscription filled they cashier asked me for 123 dollars! I about had to be carried out of the store. It’s all good though, they just accidentaly ran it through on an old insurance number, took a few hours but it got straightened out and I got my money back. They actually gave it to me for free and didn’t charge the co-pay to make up for the trouble.

I am supposed to be posting more about Christmases past, but I haven’t got it in me today, hopefully tommorrow I can get it up here.

I am not really able to be up for long periods of time now which has pretty much put any photography on hold. Unless I find something that I can shoot pretty quickly. I don’t leave the house for more than maybe a half hour at a time so I can’t even handle church at the moment, that one is really killing me. I have to reposition myself every few minutes in order to be comfortable in this chair, and after awhile that doesn’t work either. Like right now, I really want to go lay down but I really want to finish this post also.

I guess that is all I really have at the moment, I thought I had more in me than this, but apparently I am empty!