I have had a couple requests asking about my health. So in the interest of full disclosure, that and I have nothing else at the moment, let me tell you.

I feel like crap!

Seriously, still nauseous all the time, still in pain a lot of the time. That other symptom that I don’t like to talk about, yeah that’s still there too, maybe even a bit worse than before.

Other than that, everything is great. Well, except for the fact that I still am unable to work so I am bringing in no income. Thank God Becky has a job, other wise things would be much worse.

Am I stressed? You bet!

Have I turned the worry over to God? Most of it, I am having trouble letting go of some of it!

Will things get better? Health wise, I have no idea. In all other areas, that is up to God. I am certain that He will make things better in His time, if that is His will. Till that time, I will wait as patiently as I can!

I have been silent this weekend, I apologize, a little.

See, we had our company Christmas party on Saturday and the jury is still out on whether it was worth it or not. I spend enough time with those people throughout the week, why do I have to hang with them on my weekend?

My biggest problem with the whole thing was they decided to have it in a piano bar. I have nothing against pianos, just bars. I have never really liked bars, even when I was drinking a lot I didn’t do it in bars. I have always felt that the whole atmosphere in most bars is a little too rowdy for my taste.

The piano players were quite good though and kept us entertained. I do enjoy piano music and they knew pretty much anything that I threw at them for requests. Everyone else was requesting stupid stuff that really doesn’t go well on a piano but they played them anyway. They were happy that at least I was trying.

I have some photos but for the sake of my job I won’t post them, unless they tick me off again, then all bets are off!

So how was your weekend?

Did you realize that there is only 29 more days till Christmas. I am so completely not ready for this. No decorations up yet, I don’t even have them out and untangled. I do have some presents but not nearly all of them. It’s times like this…

Our company Christmas party is this coming Saturday. I haven’t felt this combination of dread and loathing in a long time. I really need to find a job that I am capable of handling with my less than super health.

All I want for Christmas it to feel better. I won’t even ask for good, just better!

I have to go back to work today, coming back from my suspension. I’m not sure how to go about this though. Should I go in looking humbled and ready to conform? Should I look like a dog that has been kicked? I know it was a punishment so I guess I should look like I have been punished.

There’s just one problem though. I had a darn good time! I got to spend more time with my family. I was able to make things easier on my wife by cooking supper for everyone. See I really want to be on day shift. That is one of the main reasons I started my job hunt in the first place. All the stuff that annoys me doesn’t hurt but I know that will be a factor no matter where I go.

Alright, now I need to go practice my sad face. I need to get this grin off my face before I get there!

I wanted to just make a post of me screaming but I decided it probably wouldn’t be appropriate or appreciated!

I am really getting burnt out at work and I have no idea how to tell them that I am on the verge of going somewhere else to work. It is just a day in and day out drag to be there, more so than it should be. I know that no job is perfect but there has to be a better one than this one. I know it is getting bad because I can be in the greatest mood and as soon as I realize it is time to go to work I am depressed and ready to go back to bed. That is definitely not the way you should feel before going to work!

I am trying to get some pictures of the fountain. The problem lies in the fact that we can’t decide where to put the darn thing! I mean we have a general idea but we just can’t seem to solidify our thoughts on it. Becky is interested in aesthetics and I am interested in getting it somewhere where it won’t be a pain to wire up! That reminds me I need to go get another extension cord for it, she can’t use my bright orange 100 footer, it’s mine and I won’t give it up!

In case you are wondering, if I swore then the title would be swear words!

At the risk of causing myself more trouble I am going to talk a bit about my job! I had pretty much stopped complaining about it ever since they found my site but this needs to be said and if they don’t know my feelings already then they would have soon enough!

See I work in a shop setting and we all have our little jobs to do. Over the course of my time there I have learned to do more than most of my colleagues there but that is not the point. See I am a firm believer in the whole “if you have a job to do than do it” school of thinking. My place of employment pays someone to come in and clean a few times a week. Just the front offices and the break room. We take care of the shop ourselves as far as cleaning goes.

Last week the “cleaning” lady decided that she didn’t want to do the restrooms or the break room anymore because they were too dirty. Cry me a river, a dirty bathroom in a shop full of guys, what a surprise. Anyway, the powers that be decided that she doesn’t have to clean them anymore, instead they have made a schedule up for us to do it. Some of us do it more than others and some don’t have to do it at all, but I digress.

One thing I don’t understand is why they are still paying her the same amount of money to do less work, the work that we are now required to do. As if we aren’t busy enough we have to take time away from production to clean the bathrooms and the break room!

Really, I don’t mind cleaning so much it’s just that it is her job, she is paid to do it. Plus the machine I work on is running constantly and has to be tended to at all times which means I have to get someone to come over and cover me when it is my turn to clean the room. Oh and get this stupid idea, if we are not able to be there on our day, WE have to make sure that our cleaning is covered by someone else, see now they are just getting lazy all over the place there!

I better stop now before I say something I regret, maybe something funny later!

Yeah, I’m still alive and kicking. Have been working on the website for my wifes work. Some updating here and there, making it run a little bit more efficiently. You know the drill! It has pretty much taken up all my free time. I have been reading other blogs but no real time or energy to comment. As a matter of fact, I should be working on it right now but I decided that my site needed a little love too.

Work has been crazy, really crazy. See I have this aversion to one particular job there and somehow I managed to be the lucky guy who always gets that job. It’s not so much that it is a bad job, it’s the fact that you just stand there loading and unloading parts, and trying not to fall asleep! I still haven’t figured out how I managed to get saddled with this machine of doom but I bet it has something to do with my aversion to it.

I’m sitting here at my very crowded desk, trying to think of something witty to say, it just ain’t happening! I have no wit! Someone must have knocked the wit out of me! Thats alright though, I really don’t give a wit. You know what they say, “Wit happens”. I know, I better stop before the wit hits the fan!

Today is officially “Why in the hell am I still working here?” day. Everyone celebrate, make a post saying why you love or don’t love, your current job. What is it that makes you show up everyday? Tell me here if you don’t have a blog, or don’t want to clutter it up with whining!

As for me, I show up everyday because I love my family and don’t want to let them down. Just once I would like for something to go my way. A job I love or win the lottery, whatever. At this point I’m not going to be picky.